STATE OF |\/|!nD

I hate being caught up in my emotions I dislike being the center of my own sadness A pain boils in me sometimes and i hope it makes me hardened as but it drains me. Drains me of the strength I thought I've got and keeps me wavering like a dry leaf from a branch. I'm flooded with people around me, I smile when I'm seen and I laugh to the jokes that fill the air but no pun connects me back to reality, No one can tell:I'm lonely. You don't know me,they don't understand me. I've been made ridicule by been a subject of my mind. I'm enslaved it. It is a cruel master who has so proclaimed itself a "Maze" to my thoughts and entire existence. I hold these emotions down, I suppress this anger so much that my lover becomes scared of me and fears for what I'm capable of. Is it my fault that I'm a rebel to my own thoughts? Probably not, yet I talk to my oppressor about the problems, I speak to my emotions -how weird. I confide in myself as I reveal the pain myself causes me constantly. But I tell myself,never would they see the flood that stays barricaded behind this dam. Never would the rain leak like a stream and flow in form of tears from these glossy eyes of mine because I taught me to be strong like that. I taught me to trust myself when I needed expert advice. I showed me how to live with care for homosapiens but expect the worst and live for it. That way I reduce the pain even before the injury. I seem strong and virile but I'm weaker than you think, With a thick skin and elastic heart I still receipt to hurt but my nervous system only recognizes the pain caused by self infliction. So,you think you hurt me? No friend. You don't,not until I let you.. Ironically still,it means I hurt me.

Singing Witchy lullaby Tricks and Treats, Brains of Maze, You don't understand no matter how hard you gaze. ×××××××××××××××××××××××××× I indeed am a "Joker"

• STATE OF MIND Oh I meant |/|!Nd

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